Dec 11, 2009
a touch of a topic
Dec 10, 2009
Basic Home training Essentials
Dec 9, 2009
Nyc Condoms:Raw Dog
Stimulation

sadly depressed
I hate feeling like this in the morning, its a terrible way to start your day
Hopefully a day outside the house will bring me time to distract my mind
All I need is distractions.
Dec 7, 2009
Dec 5, 2009
Subconsciously hypocritical
Defined like fine wine
I rule my fucking body
Nothing like the touch of a womens body
if you take a look you can only imagine how it feels
Ohhhh I'm telling you I can make a man
drop to his knees
I keep my shit classy maybe you can have a taste if your good
A long island for a long night
No limitations, nothing less then expectations
Expect the best, of the best, of the best
I knock down the rest
I'm nothing less then, better then the rest then
they couldn't see me if they wanted to
because I have better things to do
time invested into my body while my body benefits from
Mr. Pea,tea,olive green. Only the highest bidder gets to bid and even still I come out a winnner.
My bank account proves it.
I am the goddess of goddesses
The eve of all eves Uptight and uppity
I always keep it messy.
I take change that is nickels, dimes, and quarters
I can do a hand stand if you really want some.
Never the less I am your fantasy, your one night stand.
Can't stand when that shit don't rock
Not rock
Let me make you feel good.
It feels better that way anway.
I can make you feel good.
Not only am I, can I be your one night only but only for one night, can I also be your packed in one meshed with your desires of your blood related I can relate.
We can have the same last name. I can be your wife.
You name it I'll do it. I'll do it you name it.
Defined like fine wine
Here touch.
Taste me.
It's been a long night
Now you know what heaven is
I'm miles away from the real world. I'm a real hypocrite.
Dec 4, 2009
my blog: about me and to my readers
Dec 1, 2009
Nov 30, 2009
Nov 24, 2009
kelis

Open L-ve Letter
Dearest enemy,
I understand my existence to you gives you much life and reason to do and make all the ridiculous statements and behaviors that you give. How lonely and without purpose you would be without my breath or without my presence and obvious apathy for your favor.
You are my unofficial long time narrator. Continuing to tell my story over and over to whoever will listen to your nonsense, to whoever thinks that your a creditable source of exaggerated and modified bullshit. I understand, I keep your mind motivated to come up with things you think may detour me or, hurt me. I don’t blame you for getting your vitality out of my lifestyle, out of my personal decisions, out of the shoes I wore last night.
You are so generous with the energy that you give me, how could I ever be upset with your attention? My self worth triples at the thought of your fixation on my downfall. How miserable it must be to be consumed with negative thoughts of someone who just won’t go away? Because clearly, I won’t just go away. You are always there for me, even if its in the shadiest of intentions. I know you will never go away, you’re devoted and I see you, I see your efforts and this is my sincerest l-ve letter to you.
Hello again enemy, you are my motivation for me to keep you preoccupied with no one other person than me. Let’s fight the good fight, because no one would be complete without a villain. Without someone to come for me, and challenge me, and give me all the free publicity that my face can buy. I know you’re watching, so I try to put on my very best show. I try to give you all the ammunition you need, yet you still shoot blanks?
The game would’nt be fair without an opponent and in my case opponent(s). Your hatred for me comes from the heart, its real and genuine, and its origin is l-ve. So get back to your roots, enemy. There are times I might actually see you face to face, but we know this is rare, since you are so obviously, behind me.
Sincerely,
Yours Forever
Nov 20, 2009
Nov 17, 2009
10 Reasons It’s Awesome People Don’t Like You
VanJess
#2
desolate
post office that's huge parking lot screamed "rapist,murder"
It's always the best when we're all together. Being that we all grew up in different settings, circumstances, and on different morals makes up the incomparable air that makes us get along so well. Babies running around that look like me and nieces and nephews that share genes on so many levels. Nothing can compare to the feeling of looking another person in the face and say "damn you look just like my mother/father"



Nov 7, 2009
Every Women
Nov 6, 2009
The Dirty Dozen
Ever heard the expression “Bitten off more than he can chew”? When a person has too many things on their plate, they can become burdensome and cause one to become extremely stressed. Having to deal with too much work all at the same time will cause the quality of the work to decrease.
A freelance web designer, for example, will design better when he has more time to conjure up his skills and apply them as opposed to hurrying just to meet a deadline. A simple solution to this is better organisation and mature estimates of deadlines.
Fear can be of many things. Some people fear spiders, while others fear heights. I fear waking up one day and finding Madonna in bed next to me…yuck…that ugly old grandma! I was however, speaking of fear of failure.
So many freelancers are too scared to explore beyond their usual routine or to even practice what they have learnt to its full breadth. One of the many adverse effects which fear of failure has on a person is that they will become so scared of their work being rejected that they will spend too much time worrying about avoiding failure as opposed to worrying about how to grow in their field of expertise.
The recession has had many effects on us, it even claimed the life of Michael Jackson (a joke, for all you serious people out there), however the biggest effect of the recession is debt. Mounting debt and late bills with court orders and bullying bailiffs will hardly help keep your creative mind intact. This causes a person to work harder but at the cost of the quality of service they provide.
Yes, work harder if you have the stress of debt and financial insecurity. Remember that the only way in which the plan of working hard can ever be successful is by keeping the super computer between your ears totally inspired.
When you work, you should work! If you are working and are the kind of weirdo who wants to updates their Facebook status at the end of every fart then you really need a parent control on your computer! Tweeting and updating your Facebook status will get you nothing apart from a few girls realising how sad you really are!
Take regular breaks and attend to Facebook or play Gears of War in your break, not during work!
Human beings are such that when something depresses our loved ones, it affects us. This can be with serious issues but also with trivial small things. For example if your partner has had a bad day and wishes to exert their frustration, you should learn to become more listening instead of shouting back and causing a massive argument. This will help you reduce your levels of stress, and therefore you’re less likely to procrastinate as such.
Some problems are minor and can be resolved through talking and taking active steps to better a relationship, however other serious problems may require counseling or something similar. Remember, a happy surrounding will make you happy and more efficient with work.
Health does not always mean ‘mental health’. In fact I mean the vast spectrum of things which will have ill effects on your body causing you to have limited concentration and reduce your productivity.
Stress and depression are perhaps the main things in the 21st century causing us to fall behind. However, there are other things relating to health which can cause problems. In my opinion obesity and malnutrition of vital vitamins is perhaps the main cause of a ‘zombified’ freelancer.
I would recommend a daily jog. Psychiatrists recommend this for reducing stress levels and depression as it can release serotonin, a hormone which in turn will cause you to feel happier. Running can also reduce excess fat and also help you get out of general laziness. It also provides you with the ever important fresh air which every freelancer can never get enough of in front of their monitor!
A healthy diet can also help. Apart from teaching me new ways of insulting people, Gordon Ramsay also taught me that cooking healthy, edible food need not be such a chore and hard. Just Google some healthy recipes and I guarantee you will enjoy cooking and eating your food!
I had a friend who suffered for years with insomnia. It not only caused him to fall behind at university but also had detrimental effects on his social life. After years of suffering at the hand of such a treatable problem, he visited his doctor and got some medication.
Personally, I would use medication as a last resort. If you find yourself tossing and turning in bed trying to get to sleep, I would recommend getting up from bed. Your bed should be for sleep and not for simple relaxing. Carry on doing whatever you are until you feel sleepy and then go to bed. This way your bed is associated with sleep only as opposed to lying there waiting for sleep.
Try waking up earlier and packing your day full of productive tasks, you will end up being exhausted and as soon as sleep begins to overtake, tuck yourself in and don’t let the bed bugs bite!
Many freelancers will feel the lack of motivation due to not knowing what they wish to achieve in life. I feel that this is a personal decision and nobody can tell you where you should be in ten years time.
I would recommend getting a blank piece of paper and writing down all the things which motivate you. Make a list of your dreams and the things you want to achieve by the end of your life. Knowing these things better will help organise your mind better so that you can aim toward something in life.
If it is a specific car or a massive house which motivates you and you feel that it is what you wish to achieve, then print off a picture of your dream home along with your dream car. Stick it up at your workspace so you can see it and remember your aim.
If I was to ask the people reading this article “What kills creativity?” I am sure 9/10 of you would reply ‘Deadlines’”. An irritable client who will repeatedly ask for updates on their work several times a day or cause you grief over a deadline will cause you to lose creativity and lack inspiration. For God’s sake, deadline even has the word ‘dead’ in it!
Your reputation is on the line if you are late, so I would warn you from falling into the trap of trying to impress a client by giving them ambitious deadlines. In fact, I would recommend that you overestimate how long a project will take so as to not offend the client for being late.
You can call it writer’s block, or designer’s block. In reality we do pass through a phase every now and again where we don’t feel as creative as before.
I would recommend taking a walk through a pleasant park, going mountain/hill walking or simply looking to art. A holiday to an inspirational country such as Egypt, Dubai or Japan may lift the block and get you inspired again!
Watching a freelancer friend overtake you in the field and reach new heights can cause one’s spirits to become dampened. “Why is he so successful?” and negative questions of this sort will creep up and cause your attitude to become negative. This will cause unwanted reactions on your creativity.
If I was to ask you to draw a picture on a day at random when you felt excited and happy, you may draw a picture of beautiful scenery or a portrait of the ones who you love. Comparatively if you drew a picture on a day when you felt down, depressed, exhausted or frustrated you may draw a picture of a dull, dark setting.
Don’t let your competition get you down, in fact mould your unhappiness into motivation. Be happy for your friend and know that success is not far away for you as well. If they got there earlier, it hardly means anything, you will be at that level of success very soon if you keep at it.
I feel that this is the core point of creativity. If you believe that you are a good designer, you will design well. Similarly if you believe you are a good writer then you will write well.
There is a “Law of Attraction” and it’s a load of utter bollocks because it claims that you and I are “gods”. The theory however raises some good points such as saying that if you believe that you will get something you will get it. The ‘theory’ of attraction claims that this is due to the universe answering the manifestation of your thoughts. The truth is that if you believe in yourself then your actions and behaviour will change such that you will start to see routes towards achieving your goals.
Remember that you are special and unique in your own amazingway. I know a freelancer who is a designer and had been designing for years and has amazing capability and talent. One day he decided that he may not have what it takes any more and began falling down a oily slope until he realised that he was designing to same level as before. The problem was he was near the bottom of the slope and had lost business because of this. The moral of the story being that if you are good at what you do, doubting that will cause you to lose valuable clients.
Whatever it is which starts killing your creativity, do away with it – fast! Talk to friends, family, professionals and do not feel shy about talking to them. They will offer advice and help you through any problems.
Finally ask yourself “Is there anything in my life killing my creativity?”. If there is then please share it with us below so everyone can benefit from your experiences.
Agree or disagree? Express yourself below.
Body Painting Art by Craig Tracy

Oct 26, 2009
The 30 most satisfying simple pleasures
1. Sleeping In on a Rainy Day – As the rain beats lightly against the window, you nestle your head deeper into your pillow. The sound is soothing and your bed feels like a sanctuary. There is no place you would rather be.
2. Finding Money You Didn’t Know You Had – You reach into your pocket and find a $20 bill from the last time you wore these jeans. You aren’t rich, but you are richer than you were a second earlier.
3. Making Brief Eye Contact with Someone of the Opposite Sex – You pass him/her on the street or in the subway. He/she glances up at you momentarily, making direct eye contact in a way that seems to communicate a subtle curiosity. For a split second it makes you think… and then it’s gone.
4. Skinny Dipping – There is something mysteriously liberating about being naked in a body of water. You are naked, but it feels natural, a sense of unrefined freedom.
5. Receiving a Real Letter or Package via Snail Mail – E-mail has become the primary source of written communication. Most snail mail these days is junk mail. When you check the mail and find a real letter or package from someone you know, excitement overtakes you as you tear into this rare gift.
6. Making the Yellow Light - It’s one of the most common simple pleasures, the act of beating the pack. As you blaze through the yellow light you glance in your rearview to see all the cars behind you stopping at the red light. Yes! You made it!
7. Telling a Funny or Interesting, True Story - One of the most enticing roles you lead in life is that of the storyteller. You love to share stories, especially those that will captivate your audience with deep curiosity and humor. There are few things more satisfying than telling a true story that others enjoy listening to.
8. Seeing a Friend Stumble Over Himself – As you walk across the street with your friend, he fails to accurately address the curb on the other side. He trips and stumbles around momentarily before regaining his footing, then swiftly attempts to play it off like nothing happened. This can be a hilarious sight if the moment is right.
9. Hearing the Right Song at the Right Moment - It doesn’t matter what the setting is, hearing the right song for that moment is one of those simple pleasures in life that instantly lifts your spirits. You could be driving home from work, hanging out at a bar with friends, or jogging. When the right song rattles your ear drums the entire meaning of life seems crystal clear.
10. The First Sip of a Beverage When You’re Thirsty – You just finished mowing the lawn or taking a long jog. The only thing on your mind is an ice-cold glass of water. When you are really, really thirsty, that first sip of any liquid beverage is sheer bliss.
11. Catching a Glimpse of Bare Skin on the Opposite Sex – For guys, it’s when the waitress bends over a little too far. For girls it’s seeing that buff guy in a Speedo. Either way, when you see a bit more skin than you were expecting on the opposite sex, you can’t help but to smirk on the inside.
12. Saying the Same Thing Simultaneously – There is a moment of silence. Then all of the sudden you and your friend blurt out the same exact set of words simultaneously. This rare occurrence is something to smile about.
13. The Pull-Through Parking Spot – You pull into a parking spot and are delighted to see the availability of the parking spot immediately in front of you. You pull through to the spot in front so that when you return to the car you can drive forward out of the parking spot. Why? Because driving backwards is a pain in the butt.
14. Realizing You Have More Time to Sleep – Something abruptly awakens you and you think it’s time to get up. Then you squint over at your alarm clock and realize you still have 2 more hours to sleep. A warm euphoric feeling shoots though your body as you glide gracefully back to your dreams.
15. People Watching – Sitting there on your bench you can see people in every direction. Tall people, small people, thin and plump. Blond, brunette, and redhead alike. Each of them has a different stride and a unique expression. As you drift from body to body you are mesmerized by what you see.
16. Putting On Clothes Straight from the Dryer – As soon as the dryer buzzes, you pull out your clothes and put them on. They feel soothingly warm on your skin and emit a fresh-scented aroma into the air. A sentiment of ease comes over you as you head out to conquer the day.
17. A Familiar Smell – You just pulled into your parent’s driveway and opened the car door. You haven’t been home in a long while. You smell familiarity in the air, the scent of a large pine tree in the neighbor’s yard. As you head through the front door, more familiar smells consume your senses. Gosh, it feels good to be home…
18.The Feeling You Get When Your Idea Works – You have been struggling to resolve a complex problem all day and you just can’t seem to get it right. Filled with frustration, you decide to exercise one last idea before calling it a night. You’ve had many ideas before that failed miserably… but this time it works.
19. Fresh, Clean Bed Sheets – You yank at the corner of the bedspread to create just enough space to slide your body under the freshly cleaned sheets. The sheets feel cool to the touch. Everything seems so clean, like nobody has ever slept in this bed before.
20. A Beautiful View – As the car veers around the side of the mountain you gaze out the passenger window. It’s a clear, sunny day and you can see the entire valley below filled with wild flowers and bright green vegetation. The scenery reminds you of something you once saw in National Geographic. But here it is live, right before your eyes.
21. Reminiscing About Old Times with Your Closest Friends – Pink Floyd once said “the memories of a man in his old age are the deeds of a man in his prime”. There is no simple pleasure more satisfying than recounting the greatest moments of your life with your closest friends who lived these moments alongside you.
22. Receiving an Unexpected Compliment – It’s been an average day. Nothing really great has happened, but nothing terrible occurred either. This monotonous day has put you in a dreary mood. Unexpectedly, an older, attractive lady taps you on the shoulder, calls you “handsome” and says she loves your shirt. The day just got a whole lot better.
23. Having a Good Laugh – Laughter is the greatest cure of all. Life is extraordinary in the moments when you are laughing so hard you can barely breathe. These moments of deep laughter are divine in the sense that they cleanse your mood and set your mind on a positive track.
24. The Feeling After a Healthy Workout - It’s a giddy feeling of self accomplishment; the one true activity that actually makes you feel better and look better simultaneously. When you walk out the front door of the gym you are on top of the world.
25. The Celebration in the Instant Something Makes Sense – Even now that it has explained to you for the third time, you just don’t understand how it works. Everyone else seems to understand but you. Then out of the blue the dots connect in your mind. You finally get it, and it feels great!
26. Relaxing Outdoors on a Sunny Day – As you relax sprawled out in a lawn chair, the sun warms your skin and a light breeze keeps the temperature comfortable. Birds are chirping merrily in the trees behind you. You are at complete peace with the environment.
27. Holding Hands with Someone You Love – Every time she grabs your hand you are overcome with an awareness of how much she means to you. Holding hands is sensual and physically intimate, yet subtle. There are few people you allow to hold your hand, so when it happens you can be sure that the moment is special.
28. Playing in the Water – Water marvels people of all ages. From jumping in puddles as a child, to doing cannon balls in the pool as an adolescent, to enjoying a cocktail in the Jacuzzi as an adult… water is enjoyable.
29. Making Someone Smile – You notice that your colleague has been under a great deal of stress with meeting a deadline, so you take it upon yourself to complete one of her indirect responsibilities for her. As soon as she realizes what you did, she comes into your office with a big smile on her face. “Thank you”, she says. You just hit two birds with one stone, because making her smile just made your day.
30. Finishing What You Started – You just finished up a big project you’ve been working on for the last few months, or maybe you just finished your first marathon… Either way, you finalized what you set out to accomplish. The feeling of self accomplishment you get when you finish what you started is by far one of the most rewarding simple pleasures life has to offer.
Oct 23, 2009
wheres my country?






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